From 22:10 07/05/09, I took some time out to think.
I remember when my friends and I went into a over 18 place. We managed to get in, but after a while the guy there came over and said "There are too many of you in here doing nothing, please go." So, I and two other friends left, leaving four friends to finish their game in the place, thinking they'd come out and join up with us later. But they never did. And apparently, the guy only wanted to get rid of us because I, looked too young. I realised that people had a hint of annoyance in them. I wondered why am I different.
Today, I wondered again "Why am I different." But I realised that I'm happy this way, that I am not a sheep. It is often heard that people say they are unique, different to others, themselves. But when you actually think about this, they're not really. The whole lot of them, a bunch of sheep. One person does something and in less than five minutes I guarantee that just about the whole world will also be doing it. Hyperbole, don't take it literally.
I need to stop letting EVERYTHING get on my nerves. I really want to just cut myself off from the world. But I've realised that won't happen, and that I can only be by myself for a maximum of two hours per day. Sucks to that according to Piggy (Lord of the Flies).
And I truly believe that Facebook is a depressing drug. I really will try to forbid myself from going on it anymore. Especially at this time of my life. I do love tea, but really that fairtrade tea in RE today was the most tasteless thing that has ever entered my mouth. I have realised that my body cannot take the smallest amount of caffeine, and seeing as I have had a cup of (disgusting) tea today, it means that I won't be able to get to sleep for a while. And I've just been reminded of something else.
My sixth form options have totally been messed up to the max. I stopped and stared at the option blocks earlier, but I couldn't sort it out. I don't know what to do. I hate this. I feel like crap. And the thing is, when someone feels like crap, I'll be there listening for them. But I'm alone. Why?... I really want to go back to that particular TS moment. It was so relaxing. It was an example of a day when I felt problem-less. I provided a listening ear for you, you said you'd listen to any problems I had. Where are you?
Before I stop my rant, I just need to say ILOVE光良VERYMUCHINDEED.
Until 22:38 07/05/09, I took some time out to think.
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