If I could turn back time...

[Written quite a while ago but I only decided to post this now.]

There would honestly be many things which I would like to change. And I admit this. I always see loads of people who write that they wouldn't change anything if they could turn back time. But I reckon that's a load of rubbish. I would definitely change some of the things in my life.

And at the moment, my number one regret : Becoming so attached to my 求救專線. I don't think things were meant to turn out this way. But like he said yesterday on Facebook Chat, it must be fate.


Number two regret : Being such a little old fashioned shy loser. I should have told him how I felt long ago instead of letting it all drift over. Now my feelings are scattered everywhere.

Number three regret : Not revising harder for my GCSE RE exams. I am really not happy with that B grade. Too much self confidence made me think I'd achieve what I aimed for, but I set out at a different level.

Number four regret : Spending such little time with my resting in peace pet rabbit. How does it feel to know that you'll never see her again?

Number five regret : Meeting that little gay boy loser. He actually thinks he's everything. It only takes a little reading of the stuff which he writes on his Facebook Notes or Statuses to make me think that my decision ages ago was the correct one. And the way his girlfriends never last more than two months must make him realise something. But what is shocking is that it doesn't! Even more than that, not only his girlfriends changing, but his crushes change with the months too, I swear! (Or from what I've heard anyway.) He just makes me so pissed off. I can't help it. Anyway, I will stop rambling about this idiot. He's not worth my time.

Number six regret : Giving up my place on the Consortium China trip! But this hardly matters anymore. Just a little bit annoying. I'll get over this one pretty quickly.

I guess these are my six greatest regrets at this moment of my life. I'm pretty sure that there's more which aren't bothering me now, and I'm also sure that more will crop up sooner or later. But that's it from me for now!

Updating the life of Lok Lok.

The educational year of 2009-2010 commenced a month and a few weeks ago. To be honest, it feels like I haven't had a summer holiday. Everything seems very normal, except I am now a sixth former. Teachers do indeed treat you differently, and so do the younger pupils. It's very strange not having to wear a set uniform which makes it extremely difficult to decide what to wear in the morning.



However, one thing which I look forward to every week is going to our consortium school for my Maths lessons. It actually has become the highlight of the week. I'm meeting many new cool people there and one surprising thing is that my Arron look-a-like now goes there. I couldn't believe it at first. Someone called my name in the corridor and I turned around to see him there. Actually do really love it at consortium.



I also, now have a year seven mentee, who I see every Monday to talk to her and share any problems she has or just generally make her feel welcome. She's actually really nice, says hello to me in the corridors and everything. Her friends are a bit creepy though. I never remember us being that loud and crazy in year seven.



The jump from GCSE to A-Level though, really has proved to be a difficulty, especially in French. I seem to be really frightened of the lessons because I think that everyone else's French is so much better than mine. I'd say Maths is quite a bit harder too, but I'm still able to hang on to what we're doing at the moment, might have to get a tutor when it gets harder though. The homework load is quite ridiculous. It doesn't actually seem that much, but when you get working on it, then BAM, you can never get it finished it seems.

I've been back to Chinese school for two weeks now. Tomorrow, the third week. Nothing much has changed, except that I only do one lesson now, which is quite late in the day, so I hardly get anything done of Sundays. My class has quite a few new people in it. And I'm not happy about sitting on the second row. It feels too forward... And I'd say, now that I can hardly talk to him, my feelings for him are dying down, which I don't know whether is good or bad.


Anyway, now that I have a job too on top of all of my school work, means that my free time is very limited. I haven't watched any of my beloved Taiwan series since school started! And that is saying something serious. I can hardly finish all of my work, let alone have time to do leisure activities!