"一加一."

The following are my grades for General Certificate of Secondary Education:
A* - Chinese (In which I achieved in the year 2007.)
A* - French
A* - Science Core
A* - Science Additional
A - Maths
A - English Language
A - English Literature
A - History
A - Latin
A - Design Technology : Resistant Materials
B - Religious Education
And to be honest, I am not happy with my grades although they are the same as my sister's. Mine, with an added Chinese, which she did not take.

"因為愛你我可以若無其事."

You know, feeling a bit on the low side at the moment. I know why it is, but I'm leading myself into thinking much more than I really need to. I believe two months of doing nothing has given me a confused mind. All I do now is wake up in the morning only to go back to sleep in the night. And I still really need a heart to heart talk with someone, which leads me to my first problem... My 求救專線 is not replying. :'[

Second problem : I am really really really missing HIM. Don't know who I can invite out as an excuse to see him. Too afraid to invite him out alone. The only thing I have left is Facebook which really does not help at times.

Third problem : My new mobile, which I have owned for less than two months, has gone and died on me. It was such a beautiful phone. I reckon it is only the battery, but still, how cheap.

Fourth problem : Everyone is reminding me of GCSE Results Day which is on the 27th August. There really is no need, do people think that I don't have enough to worry about or enough stuff on my mind? People reckon that I'm super smart and totally unbeatable, however it is only I who knows the truth. They give me unwanted pressure thinking I will get impossibly high results and such, but I know I won't. And the truth is often depressing. I truly would like smooth As and A*s, but you know that is not possible. I have to follow after my older sister who did well. I can't stand it now. And I won't be able to stand it when everyone is disappointed.

Fifth problem : Still not completely over the fact that my rabbit has died. One month yesterday. Miss her so so much. She was an amazing friend. I won't ever forget her.

This is exactly why everyone should have their own angel. Everyone needs a little comfort when they are down...

"勇氣."

I realised I have not written in a long time, it may have been because I was on holiday for a month, or maybe it was because I was afraid to come here and see my posts about him. However, I am no longer the same person as I was a couple of months ago, I am new and improved with added 勇氣! I can also announce that my friend and him have broken up. Over this matter you cannot say that I am happy because I really am sorry for their short relationship. But whenever my friend is in need, I ensure you that I will always be there to listen.

I received a message from her during my holiday and it shocked me. She told me that if I still liked him that I should go ahead and pursue it. And I tell you now, I have no intentions on doing that. I will not chase after someone to get their heart. I know times have changed and it is perfectly normal for girls to do that nowadays, however I would feel rather embarrased if I asked him out and he rejected it. But my friend also told me that he said to her once that he can tell me things which he hasn't been able to tell anyone else. I would say that's a good enough start.



Anyway, I really believe that I need a TS moment. Stuff has happened and all I can do is pull out my own courage to face it. I want someone to share my unfortunate happenings with, preferably him. But I can conclude that the one month long holiday to Hong Kong, Japan and Taiwan has done me well overall. I look forward to seeing all my friends again.